Light in the Darkness Wednesday, December 15, 2021
2 The people who walked in darkness
have seen a great light;
those who lived in a land of deep darkness —
on them light has shined.
August 17 is a date that will be forever burned into my memory as that was the day my husband stopped living. With his death my world stopped turning, and I began walking in darkness. Brian is the one whom my soul loves. We thought we had forever in front of us and had started making plans for retirement. As we would soon find out, God had a different plan for our lives.
We had planned a trip to Bryson City with my brother and his family for late July. The Big Six we called ourselves (Brian, me, Callie, Eddie, Beth, and Mckenna) as we set off on one adventure after another. Brian and I had been invited to a wedding the Saturday before we had to leave for Bryson City. A little voice inside my head spoke up and said, “You really should not be going to this wedding-you have way too much to do to get ready for the Big Six trip to Bryson City.” I pushed the nagging voice out of my head and away to the wedding we went. Did I mention it was a mask-less wedding? Not a mask in sight, and again with that little nagging voice invading my head and saying, “I wonder how many people here have Covid?” Again, I pushed that nagging voice way. Three days later, the Big Six went to Bryson City. Two days after we returned Brian, Callie, and I were diagnosed with Covid 19. Fifteen days after that diagnosis, the love of my life stopped living.
Isaiah 9:2 says that, “The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned.” I have become a person walking in darkness, but I know that the light of God has never stopped shining on me. I just cannot seem to see the light right now and am stumbling around in the dark trying to make sense of Brian’s death. I have experienced some moments of comfort from knowing that Brian is basking in the love of that great light where I will join him one day.
Dear God, Thank you for your unending love and for never leaving me alone in the dark. Keep shining your light on me even when I cannot see it. In your name I pray. Amen.
St. John’s Lutheran Church, Salisbury, NC
This devotional is a joint project between Christmas Lutheran (Bethlehem) and St. John’s (Salisbury, NC).